Should have, would have, could have, probably should never ever be?

Would haves, could haves and should haves probably should never be. Sometimes I think it's best to leave the past in the past. I have never heard of a missed opportunity coming to fruition and working out in the future. Recently, an opportunity has presented itself for me to become establish with an old friend. And because I had once held this person in such high regard.....I began to think about the possibilities for the future. Back in the day, I absolutely adored this person. I thought of him as extremely kind, warm, sensitive, loyal and attractive. While he was/is very physically attractive, I found (for me) his personality traits were the biggest turn on. He had a very sweet endearing quality about him. Most importantly, he made me feel safe when I was around him. I am not one to live in the past. But, I couldn't help but ponder the possibilities. Unfortunately, some recent information has come to light. I am sure that on some level he still has all of the qualities that I once adored. But as we age, the effects of life begin to take their tole. We become more skilled at deceiving, manipulation, and misrepresentation. I am wondering if it is a lesson learned. Would haves, could haves, probably should never be!

So, God if your listening try not to laugh at my simplicity. Please bring me someone kind, honest, warm, sensitive, and loyal. I don't care about money or influence. I want to be with some that I can connect with and feel safe with again.

New Beginnings

It has been many years since my divorce. I feel as if I have been barely existing. Being a responsible single mother of two that works in health care just doesn't leave much energy or desire to take time for myself at the end of the day. My children are 10 and 9. Somewhere along the way with the day to day hustle, I have lost my way. I have lost myself. The sad thing is that if I don't take care of myself, who will? I think this is a common problem for most women. They get lost in raising their family. I don't want my entire identity to be about family.

So now, I am ready to turn over a new leaf. I am ready to reclaim the person I was/am. The fortunate thing is that I am a better person now than what I was prior to children. Reclaiming myself will be a process of adjustment not only for myself but the children and my family. Boundaries will be set. Limits will be placed.

My future is looking brighter. The possibilities are endless as they have always been. So here's to new beginnings...................