Should have, would have, could have, probably should never ever be?

Would haves, could haves and should haves probably should never be. Sometimes I think it's best to leave the past in the past. I have never heard of a missed opportunity coming to fruition and working out in the future. Recently, an opportunity has presented itself for me to become establish with an old friend. And because I had once held this person in such high regard.....I began to think about the possibilities for the future. Back in the day, I absolutely adored this person. I thought of him as extremely kind, warm, sensitive, loyal and attractive. While he was/is very physically attractive, I found (for me) his personality traits were the biggest turn on. He had a very sweet endearing quality about him. Most importantly, he made me feel safe when I was around him. I am not one to live in the past. But, I couldn't help but ponder the possibilities. Unfortunately, some recent information has come to light. I am sure that on some level he still has all of the qualities that I once adored. But as we age, the effects of life begin to take their tole. We become more skilled at deceiving, manipulation, and misrepresentation. I am wondering if it is a lesson learned. Would haves, could haves, probably should never be!

So, God if your listening try not to laugh at my simplicity. Please bring me someone kind, honest, warm, sensitive, and loyal. I don't care about money or influence. I want to be with some that I can connect with and feel safe with again.